Yesterday, I stood naked in the mirror and didn’t recognize myself. Who is this person? She kind of looked familiar but something was different. Her shoulders drooped, her eyes didn’t gleam like they used to and she her expression looked liked she had the weight of the world on her shoulders.
Then I looked closer and I realized that I was looking at myself. A version of me that I’ve been carrying around for years but truly didn’t accept because I knew that someday she would have to leave.
You see, the last time I looked at her this closely was at a Weight Watchers meeting. I stepped on the scale and it read 376 lbs. As the lady read my weight, tears started to well up in my eyes, but I held them in until I walked out the doors and saw my reflection in the window. How did I get here? Why can’t I seem to control my eating? Why don’t I work out more often? My answer to all of these questions was simple. I was lazy.
I looked at my body from head to toe and tried to make excuses for why or how we got here but looking yourself in the eye, there is nothing but the truth. As I stood staring into the mirror, I knew that I had to make a change, but it’s one of the hardest things to do, especially when you are doing it alone. How do I change who I’ve been for so many years? How do I stop myself from falling back into old habits?
Change your mindset. That’s what I heard when I looked in the mirror. Change your mindset. I’ve tried that before, so what will be the difference this time around? “She’s been waiting to emerge.” Okay, these voices are starting to spook me out! But I completely understood what was meant by “She’s been waiting to emerge”, you see I’ve found that when I’m scared as hell or nervous as hell, there is this other side of me that steps up. She’s well-spoken, never scared and ready to take on the challenge. She’s me, the version of me that I keep hidden away because I allow fear and laziness to consume me.
I’m overweight, I’m a diabetic, my weight has caused me to have had lower back and knee issues, my weight has caused me to hide my confidence, and to not feel good in my own skin.I’ve played with my health for far too long and thank God that nothing major has happened as a result of the extra weight that I carry around.
What I know for sure… Losing this weight will be hard, but I’m ready. I will live a healthy lifestyle and surround myself with people that will encourage and support me. My body loves to feel the blood pumping after a good workout and I will give it more. I feel sexy when I’m working out and taking care of my body and my future husband will appreciate that I care for my body. I will be able to play with the children I will adopt in a few years, if I take care of this weight now and next year, I will go to the LA Fair and get on that ride that I had to embarrassingly walked away from because I couldn’t fit.
When you get to the point of knowing that it’s time to change, you have to act and not let anything or anyone get in the way. Whatever you have to do to conquer your goals, you do it. Jump over the obstacles, go over and go around, but make it to the end! You have one life. This life, this moment is all that you have. Take advantage and change your life.
4 Tricks to Jump Start Your Weight Loss:
- When you don’t feel like exercising. – Ask yourself, how can I take this moment to push my body to the next level? How will I feel afterward?
- Wear something you love, it makes you want to at least go to the gym a show-off. Once you’re there, you might as well workout. My outfit details, Old Navy Pink Tank Top, Old Navy Yoga Pants, Old Navy Sports Bra.
- Get a friend to be your support buddy. Have them call you and check-in to ensure your eating right or going to the gym. Maybe you can two take a class together. Yoga is always a good option for some girl time!
- Find something you love and do that! Love Hip Hop? Take a dance class. Love meditation, try yoga. I love to lift weights and Body Pump is one of my favorite classes that incorporates cardio and strength.
Just get moving, even if it in the comfort of your bedroom.